[Most Recent Entries]
Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in
[ << Previous 20 ]
[ << Previous 20 ]
|Thursday, January 26th, 2006|
|it's been...what, 4 months?
I'm now 21. Yep. Went to the bar last night. Definitely got buzzed.
This semester sucks so far. My focus is completely gone and has been since I got here on the 8th or something. There are a few reasons for that...
Anyway, I have a girlfriend now. The bad thing is that she's in Long Island right now...Either way, this semester should be good despite the damn workload (19 credit hours...). Meh, I'll live.
Class in a few...stupid LAN Systems...
LATER Current Mood: energetic
|Tuesday, September 6th, 2005|
You know, being single for 20 years is, well, strange. I mean, I have all this free time to myself to do whatever it is that I wish to do. Music has become one of those things that fills that void. Many know how important music has been in my life. So, with all of the music I have in one form or another, why is it that Megadeth's 'Youthanasia' album makes me think of everything I have, want and need in life? Lines like "Moving on is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard," "Let me show you, how I love you, it's our secret, you and me," "It ain't called getting even, here comes the reckoning day," and "Random turmoil builds in me, I'm addicted to chaos" mean several different things, and yet mean so much to me?
Still in the fucking penalty box...this is bullshit...
GIGANTOUR FUCKING RULED!!
anything else? *ponders*
MEEP! Current Mood: Not too sure...
|Thursday, August 4th, 2005|
i should update that pic...
and i'm bored.
so very bored.
but not sleepy.
need to clean and organize the trunk for school, my CDs (need more boxes), have to update the music collection lists, meh...
bored... Current Mood: meh
yep...4 months? 3.5? eh, whatever...
i return ot alfred on tuesday...
can't wait to get back, either...
|Sunday, April 17th, 2005|
|Damn, it's been a while...
Been a while since my last entry. Here Deanna, I updated it for ya ;) Plus, it's not even 10AM on Sunday, and I'm up. I should be sleeping, but this fucking cold has kept me from falling back asleep. Damned sickness!!!
Anyway, had a cold all last week. That sucked ass. Yesterday was cool, with it being Hot Dog day here in Alfred and all. Granted, a lot sucked because I was stuck in the building at 6PM, but still had some fun prior to that. Had to go to the hot dog stand my fraternity (yea, I joined a fraternity, surprising, ain't it?) was running at 3 and was just hanging out there. Hell, I didn't want to get anyone my cold, therefore didn't hand out hotdogs. Ran up to Braddon after I left there to hang out with Deanna, Ben, Danielle, and the rest of the nerdery. That was fun, got a few pictures which I'm still waiting to recieve, haha.
But, yea, since the last entry, I've:
-Joined a fraternity, strangely enough
-Had spring break, in which I was lazy
-Got mid term grades, holding steady at a 3.3
-Got even more CDs
-Went to that Suffocation/Behemoth show back in February, which I got a 'Breeding the Spawn' Suffo long sleeve shirt that kicks ass
-Went to Canada and a strip club. Well, two...
-D/L a hell of a lot of music
Yea, that's about it. Some good memories in there. Still missing out on some things, but alas, they will come. Time is just my enemy. But, meh. I'll have the last laugh.
Now, back to Divinity Destroyed and drifting off to wherever it is i drift off to... Current Mood: mellow but surprisingly awake
|Thursday, February 3rd, 2005|
Been thinking lately. Way too much thinking for my own good. Bad things happen when I think. Too many things go wrong. Sometimes, I wish I knew what people are thinking. That way, I would know what not to say to certian people...or at least, be able re-word what I want to say. Especially when I'm online...things never come out the way I want them to when talking online.
Anyway, still waiting to hear on a price for that Suffocation/Behemoth concert. Well, not a price, but when the tickets go on sale. IT BETTER BE SOON, DAMMIT!!!
Well...yea. Have to sit duty this weekend. Not like I wouldn't be up until 4 each night anyway. There just better not be any bullshit that happens...I'll fucking kill if there is...
Well, night people. Sleep for me right now. The one place when I'm at peace with myself...
Meh, I'll live. Current Mood: confused
|Monday, January 31st, 2005|
I just found out that I made the national dean's list for 2004-2005. This is something you have to be nominated for. I'm unbelievably surprised right now. I have no idea how I could have made this. I have to find out who nominated me and thank them, as i could get a $50,000 scholarship for having made it. Less than 0.5% of college students make that list. This is really shocking.
On another note, I'm listening to funeral doom right now. Kind of contradictory to the dean's list thing, hahaha Current Mood: surprised
|SUFFOCATION AND BEHEMOTH!!
Suffocation and Behemoth have a concert together on Feb. 25. This will fucking rule if the tickets are the right price \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/
Damn, now I'm hyper. Just the thought of these two death metal behemoths (haha, pun) in the same venue the same night is fucking amazing. Especially if Behemoth sticks to their more death metal-oriented material ('Themla 6', 'Zos Kia Cultus' and 'Demigod').
SUFFOCATION!!!! BEHEMOTH!!!! FUCK YES!!!
*dananatda dananatdananatda dananatda dananatdananatda dananatda dananatdananatda dananatda dananatdananatda* Current Mood: hyper
|Saturday, January 29th, 2005|
HAHAHA!!! 7 months since last update. DIDN'T POST AT ALL LAST SEMESTER!!! HAHAHA!!! Not like any of you give a shit, buttwipes :p
Anyway, watching the Barrett Jackson auction on Speed TV. Getting pissed off at it, too. Too many cars I want, i.e. Dodge and Plymouth muscle cars with HEMIs (namely a 1970 Hemi Cuda that went for $305k) and the 427ci 'Vettes. Damn those people that can aford them. DAMN THEM!!! Maybe I'll fly to Arizona and mug them, steal the keys, and take the cars. But I'd need to get about 40 minions to help me out. Good minions are hard to find these days.
Yea...now...you can all...uh...burn in...um...motor oil...
BAH! I can't think imaginatively tonight. I blame public access television. Current Mood: devious
|Saturday, June 12th, 2004|
it's been a while since i last updated. meh.
got a bunch of CDs lately, plus 2 on eBay for good price. if only this one ass would accept postal MO's as payment, i'd get another. damn bastard. i think he hates me. or jsut doesn't want me to get the CD. or...uh...yea lol
that's all i have to say, i guess, heh Current Mood: bored
|Sunday, May 2nd, 2004|
|Today is the Day...
lyrics to "Temple of the Morning Star":
"I wake in cold sweat And there is no one Who cares This life No life
It's killing me I am slowly dying I can't be what you want me to be I am dead"
So they aren't pure metal. I'm not a pure metal head as it is. But they kick ass.
I can't wait for school to be over. After finals, and I'm home for the summer, I have 2 weeks of nothing. No job until i return from Maine on June 6 (leaving Indy 500 weekend). Hopefully my parents will have a new computer. They better...
I might actually have a life this summer. And it's about damn time.
And sometimes, I wish my imagination wasn't so wild. But then again, that's what keeps me going.
I don't know why I am the way I am. Whether it's the way i was brought up, moving away from where i grew up when i was 10, I have no idea. All I know is that, for the most part, I wouldn't change. I don't know if college changed me at all. I really don't think so. My friends here are like my friends in high school. My life style is the same here as it was before. I don't know if that is a good thing or not. I guess time will tell... Current Mood: relaxed
|Thursday, April 8th, 2004|
Death don't dance with me
Death don't dance with me
Death don't dance with me
Death don't dance with me!
You have the right to kill me
I have the right for ignoration!
Kill the king straight by your heart
Don’t play a-round in tactical-circles
Don’t play chess - I’m bad in it!
if you know what that's from, i'll be amazed. but no one's probably going to see it, so oh well
hm...this is going to be a LONG summer... Current Mood: awake
|Wednesday, March 24th, 2004|
|Katatonia - 'Last Fiar Deal Gone Down'
'Last Fair Deal Gone Down'
Non-stop play since sunday night
This is the first time in a long while that there was an album that I played non-stop. Giving it a break at the moment.
Hm...yea. Maybe I like music too much...
Nah. Current Mood: okay
|Thursday, March 4th, 2004|
Fuck, i hate this feeling where you know your parents care about you, your family cares about you, some of your friends do give a damn about you, and shit like that...but you just don't care about that at all. You feel nothing. No feelings for others whatsoever.
What the fuck is wrong with me...i can't say this shit in life, yet i can say it online. What...the...fuck...
And to those who blame music for feelings like this - I've had these feelings before music was even a part of my life. So you all can kiss my ass.
Why did i have to go to a fucking private christian school for 5 fucking years...
AND WHY HTE FUCK CAN'T I FOCUS ON SCHOOL!!! FUCK!!! WHY DON'T I GIVE A DAMN!!!
Damn this world we live in...
... Current Mood: blah
|Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004|
I like this weather...minus the damn rain. Dammit... Current Mood: moody
|Monday, February 23rd, 2004|
FUCK SHIT WHORE BITCH FUCK FUCK ASS CUNT WHORE FUCK CORPORATE AMERICA FUCK SHIT GODDAMMIT BITCH WHORE
THE BEST MUSIC STORE AROUND ROCHESTER NY, FANTASTIC RECORDS, IS GOING OUT OF BUSINESS!! MOTHER FUCKER!!!!
This fucking blows :(
Fucking big time stores. You all can kiss my ass. Goddammit :( Current Mood: pissed off
|Thursday, February 19th, 2004|
Well, my so called cold is gone. Slight cough now. Nothing i can't handle, heh.
Why have I been so damn tired lately? Shit, today was the first time I've fallen asleep BEFORE I ate supper in a long time. Dammit...
Wow, the band Vehemence kicks ass. Current Mood: tired
|Friday, February 13th, 2004|
Soar throat...and stuffy nose. GREAT.
This better be gone by Friday...
On the upside, my tickets for the Opeth show came in *w00t!* Current Mood: sick
|Sunday, February 8th, 2004|
...on the upside, Dale Jarrett won the Bud Shootout race last night. And the last two times he won it, he won the Daytona 500. And those were 4 years apart from each other (1996 and 2000). It's 2004, 4 years since he last won the 500. Who knows...
I hate college. I have no drive to do the work now. I don't want to be here. Fuck I hate it.
Bah... Current Mood: aggravated